The Loneliest Number

2:38am: a week to remember
the past week has been trying for many
there are many different reasons for this

i find my reasons to be the same as in previous years
still dealing with the loss of my father

while many people are still dealing the devastation caused by 9/11
i feel that i have not been affect by the tragic event in the same ways that many around the globe have

it was just two days later that i lost my father, who meant a lot more to me, as selfish and selfless as it sounds than the number of people who were lost due to 9/11

i was never allowed to fully grasp the affects of the event.

and so i sit here and wonder if i will ever
or if other events will continually take the place

this week has been trying to many, and i only hope that all have made it through

like always, i will always be here to support others in need, i try as hard as i can to be a rock.

1:07am: 00000000000000h
what a busy weekend.
traveled west, north, northwest, and south

Friday headed out to K-zoo, all was going well, then i got kicked out of the bar and lil diglet got beat up in the parking lot, now he hates me

didn't sleep, got home headed to traverse city with uncle and hoag....best run of my life on the tables
......................still didn't sleep.......ooooooooooooooooooooooooooh

headed down to Tigers game with the family, Mother, Sister, Sister's Boyfriend, Mother's Boyfriend, Mother's Boyfriends two sons, and Mother's boyfriend's Mom, how lovely
I managed to make it on TV, how cool am I,except for the fact that i was the idiot putting on his rally cap, i always hated it when they showed dumbasses flipping their hats inside out, its just ridiculous
and then I was that Guy

arrrrrrgh

soooooooooo tired
i tried to sleep so many times, tonight should be good, i have a busy day tomorrow
goodnight LJ


ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

3:58am: tonight
i cried tonight, and it felt great.

12:09am: a day in the life
wake up around 1ish
1-3 dont even know
fuck around on the internet
watch some espn for a few hours
do a little running around for about an hour

moorehouse comes over about 9-11
drink drink drink
go to bed about 5 am

yeah yeah yeah how great

it will all change shortly
come June i'm pretty serious like 9-5 ick

yeah i know oooh

2:45pm: Pot Roast
so i'm attempting to cook a pot roast in a crock pot at the moment.
I think it could take hours to cook.

I hope it ends up being alright, cause i just threw a bunch of randoms in with the roast.

if its good i'll post the recipe.

late

12:32am: been a minute
my sister bought me a nose hair trimmer for my birthday in january.

i love it.

3:59am: yeah
grey's anatomy

yep

2:57pm: here it is
it's my sister's birthday today.

i have realized that through the years certain people have had an affect on my life.
maybe it is just the Beam talkin, but
a lot of times i wish that i have never had to deal with the shit that i have,
in the end i can only help that during my short existance that there is a meaning to all the hardships.
so far none of them have been justified.

my life has been tarnished, if a life can be, and yet it is just beginning.
i am close to having a degree, but am afraid to complete the final requirement.
the future is here for me, but i dont' want it to be.

i now have my substitute teaching license so i will be teaching your kids.
don't worry, i will be nothing but good,
teach them good morals and to value friendship above everything.
things that were not taught to my peers.

and so now it is over.
here's to tonight.
my sister's b-day.

the drinking has begun, now for the bitches.

late

4:15am: yea yea
In D.C. visiting Yinka

late see you early tuesday.

i love you

4:54am: is this life?
I stay up til 6-7 am everyday
sleep 5-6 hours
if i'm lucky i get to go to the Post Office to ship a book i sold on Amazon

blah


lovely

9:08am: Top of the Morning to Ya
As i was sitting here rolling a weed joint
wait that must have been someone else i don't do that shit...

I looked over and saw Meriah....she looked human.

I'm in Grand Rapids tonight, yea.

bye

5:28am: yea
its my b-day


give me some love.

2:28am: Saturday, January 21st
Tentative Birthday Schedule

4 PM - 6 PM - Dinner Mesquite Creek - Clarkston
6:30 PM - 9:30 PM - Gameworks @ GLC
10:00 PM - 12:00 AM - Drinkin @ Bullfrogs
12:30 AM - 2:00 AM - Nite Cap @ Otisvile Hotel
2:15 AM - Morning - Sleeping w/ some hot chick (merry B-Day to me)

Hopefully I make it to all my destinations.

Get Ahold of me to hop on this train.


Late.

1:35am: my new favorite thing
hanging out at the strip club for long periods.

10:46pm: yea
so my sister got me $100 Best Buy cert...so i rebought my digital camera

yes

1:01pm: yeah it's kinda like that
Am I the only one who can lose his car in the middle of flint fall and get covered in mud and wander the streets seeking shelter?

yes




late

2:50am: 12/31/2005
Last Day of the Year

Hanging our with Step Child
cause who else would I

I love the kid and that is about it

We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.

fuck it



late

8:27pm: Christmas Eve
another Christmas Eve like last year:

cold and alone

:-(

(if you don't believe check my post last year)

2:50pm: Another Story that involves,
Harvey, Harvey's Cavalier, Harvey in the back of a Cop Car, drinking and driving <----yeah no drinking and driving this time....imagine that the usual story would involve the latter....

This is why GM is in the shitter...and will be bankrupt and gone in less than two years....

Driving down to state...trip took about 4 hours...yes it is indeed a 45 minute trip...
normally on the way down might have a couple road sodas...something was weird this night...

Check Gages Light flashes on
this lets me know hey...you got about a gallon left...20-30 miles tops...get gas don't push it...
about 11 miles from my scheduled exit...good to go

or was I?

hit my trip...to keep track of my miles...hits about 1 yes UNO miles...um Allen i think we are running out of gas...

is what i said

make it up the off the ramp...about 20 feet pulled her off the road

Now Exit 105 on 69...its one of those exits where the gas stations are on the complete other side about .5-.75 miles away.

no big deal...me and Allen, my homeless friend who is destined for Chicago soon...begin the walk in the cold

and it was cold...

buy the gas can, fill it up, managed to get gas all over me...was gonna be the gas smellin kid at the party...

whole trip took about 20 minutes...gettin back to the vehicle...already two cops there...lovely my favorite...

sidenote: I am double spacing this for your benefit...just like in school...

first thing...that sucks, yeah it does, don't look good with that case of beer in your backseat..yeah i know..

filled her up...car wouldn't start...lovely

cops get another call have to leave, they will be back...i kill the battery trying to start it..

call my MSU friends, buddies, pals, the ppl i love...aka Sniels, PatTheresa, CLK..

come rescue us, we are cold, they are on their way like troopers...

go buy some jumpers...why>? because my roomate Lynn...stole mine...why do ppl have jumpers?

its for when you get stranded in the cold, and need a jump...you don't use them often...but when you need them

oh man it is so worth it...so i will kill the fucker...cause a lot of gasoline stations do not even sell them..

i got lucky...

get back...i don't know how to hook shit up to Sniels car battery...yeah i suck...battery is barried..

cops come back...girls kinda buzzin...evacuation takes place...its good

cop will jump us...nope can't too much shit hooked up to his battery...gravy

call a tow truck, get a jump, cavalier almost wouldn't start, finally did

while waiting, the cop pulls up all my shit, wow a lot of violations...then theres the one

from Shiawaisee county, where i happened to be, describes me as sleeping in my car behind a barn, great

we were buds, it was fun, we were on to state..

i could have told the story in about two lines

but eff it...maybe ppl read it..and maybe it was too long

nothing really happened..just ran out of gas, and got a jump

nothing exciting


late

1:29am: the future is now
i finished my last college exam today
go me
i hung out with my kettering friends
ate dinner
drank a few
needed to go home and hit my head to the pillow

now i am bored and sleep is the only thing to entertain


bye

8:07pm: so
everytime i ride with drew he gets a ticket
its funny/sad
we were gonna go see a movie but no longer

***had my last class today how great is that
****done with school friday
*****last exam begins at 6 PM
******I have hella to do before then
*******but i did so much today that i am chillin
********this weekend will be great <>

10:56pm: um for the record
the proper technique to use when it comes to washing a tie is to put it in a washing machine NOT to put it in a washing machine

12:44am: Time has Come
Changes have to be made
I know what I got to do
And I'm this close to running with it











aw

6:01pm: bar hop_ping
Highlights of Hanksgiving break:

1. 5 Day Drinking binge was huge over T-Day break
2. Was kicked out of a party for calling the neighbor kid..."neighbor dude"
3. Fulfilled one of my dreams I had since i was 11
4. Pimped the fruit section of the North End Soup Kitchen (beef says i was on the news)
5. Hank finally throbbed again

Shortcomings:

1. Harvey was not equally distributed amongst the people he loved (aw)
2. Did absolutely nothing of any importance
3. Realized the bar is a lonely place on Thanksgiving
4. Utter realization that a lot of people do actually hang out with their families on thanksgiving (I never knew)

sidenote: Do people hang out with their family on christmas too?

5. Kind of relates to No. 1, but no one who will read this has seen me for at least 2 weeks boo.

thats all i got

see you guys sometime maybe


late

5:57pm: i got some beer
someone
let's drink some beers

please

***desperation***